Why is it so hard? Every conversation. Every minute of every fucking day. Why is everything so hard? When can I just be normal? Talk normally. Care. Interact. Have relationships. Not just a boy friend. But friends. Family. Anything. Why is everything so intense?

Why am I manic and depressed and sleepless and tired and numb and racy all at once? And ok, I am… now how do I deal with it and be functional?


9 thoughts on “Intense

  1. It sucks going through this. Sometimes all you can do is ride it out. It’s been I think almost 7 years since I was diagnosed Bipolar and I’m still having the same problem. I get 100 different excuses and no one fixes anything. Hang in there!

    • After years of not being able to step out of my house and ordering everything home… I packed my bags and left my city to a touristy coastal city for 2 months. Here I’ve been forced to go to shops, interact with people. Some days are ridiculously hard but way way better than I was back home. The drasticnes of this action helped me. Hope you find something that works for you 🙂

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