Off the grid

I’m not ok. I went to watch a play today. And I felt so low and lonely and disconnected from a world that used to be mine. One to which I belonged… And how.

I miss it. I crave the adrenaline. I miss the creativity. The rush of creating something. Something that’s yours. That you conceived. That you partook in. That you…

Forget creating one… I am not even function enough to go watch one.

I’m always so tired. Of life. The world. Everything.

Is it normal to feel this tired? And I’m so fat. I didn’t realise I’d become this huge. When I look at my pics, I don’t relate to them. Coz in my head I look like something else.

I’m so disconnect from reality. In so many ways. My disassociation seems like the last thing keeping me off the grid.

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5 thoughts on “Off the grid

  1. Hello Narrator. How are you? Do you remember me? I remember you. I remember you because you came to my blog once upon a time in 2016. I hope you are well. I am good, and I want to hear you say that you are good too. I have some treatment with respect to what ails you. I will write a post about it on my blog. I am praying for you and sending positive vibes your way.

    • Heyyyy… I do remember you. Been so long ๐Ÿ™‚ I’m much better from back then. Back on medication and therapy. A lot happened which led me to a very dark spot and I couldn’t do without help. All for the better I guess.
      It’s so nice to hear from you. Really made my day.
      So share what your recommendation is. Would love to read it. ๐Ÿ™‚

    • And I’m really sorry for the delayed response. I really haven’t been writing too much. So didn’t even see the comment. Extremely sorry. And really… Thank you for remembering and msging.

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